When it's late at night and I have nothing to do, I get to thinking. Recently, I guess I've done a lot of bullshit things I wouldn't have done a year or so ago. I'm not talking about getting drunk or stuff like that. It's more.. on the intimate side. You know, with a person. Don't get me wrong; it's not bad, but it makes me question myself. If I keep it up, aren't I just setting myself up to get hurt a third time? Or maybe it's just one of those growing up things. Something you can't help. Something you just keep going back to cause you know it's always there. Perhaps the only thing that worries me is if maybe I'm the only one reading too much into it. What if I'm the only one trying to reignite something that maybe isn't there anymore. Or maybe I'm just.. too hopeful. Or hopeless.
Relationships. Those are a toughie. I hate being emotionally bound to a person. Sometimes. One of the things I don't get either is when people find out how I'm still close to my exes and they say "Wow, that says a lot about you." Does it really? What does it say then except for me being nice?
